Friday, March 16, 2012

New lease on life!

I went to see my oncologist yesterday with my mom in tow.  We were both trying to contain our excitement at the seemingly awesome pictures of the last PET scan that I had done on Monday.  We thought it looked really good but then again, we didn't want to put the cart before the horse.

My oncologist was "very pleased" with my scan results, which is saying a lot for him as he tends to be very understated most of the time.  I am sure that his profession requires a certain amount of detachment from becoming emotional over patients test results.  It appears that I am indeed CANCER FREE!

I still have dead tumors in my liver (they are continually shrinking) but there are no LIVING TUMOR CELLS left in there or in the rest of my body!  Needless to say my mother and I were both sporting perma-grins for the entire day after that.

It is like a new lease on life!

All of my hard work has paid off and in LESS THAN TWO YEARS FROM MY ORIGINAL DIAGNOSIS!

Two years ago on March 24, 2010 I had a very grim prognosis.

Two years ago my world spun out of control.

Two years ago I decided to take control back of every possible thing I could control.

I radically changed my diet, it was do or die and I was not going to be complacent about accepting what the statistics told me.  I was told I was inoperable and incurable and that I did not have much time left on this earth.  I was not a candidate for liver transplant, living or deceased as the cancer had metastasized from my bile duct into my liver and they were afraid that it would be a waste of an organ to give me a transplant as it could potentially have spread to other places that they were unaware of.  I took this to mean that I would have to do this all by myself, cure myself from the inside, as in INcurable.

I want to share my story far and wide!   I want everyone out there to know that it can be done!  I have scoured the internet for others who have cured themselves from extensive, aggressive, incurable, cholangiocarcinoma and I have found none.  Why is that?  I have found others that have cured themselves from other types of cancer but not CC.

It wasn't easy.  Over 40 chemotherapy treatments and in between all those treatments nutritional IV's to help me negate the nasty side effects of chemo.  So many drugs, handfuls of oxycodone daily, rashes, early menopause, hair loss, mood swings, constant itching and ringing in the ears, my brain turning to mush, loss of weight and with it all muscle tone in my body.  The list goes on and on and I still struggle with many side effects today.

If you are living with a cancer diagnosis you don't have to just accept everything your doctors say.  They are only human and as all humans they make mistakes.  They see so many patients every single day, too many to be able to fully devote their time to you and your healing.  Please, I beg you, take your control back! Become informed and educated about every little thing you can to to help yourself.  You may not believe in some of the "woo-woo" stuff like the healing power of crystals or foot detox baths or that acupuncture or acutonics can actually heal you but tell me, what do you really have to lose by trying it?  Drugs are not always the answer.  I do feel that drugs had a place in my healing process, but I also feel very strongly that it is all of the "other" stuff that I did that kept me strong enough to fight.  Who knows what "it" was that killed my cancer.  Perhaps it was the combination of everything.  I am not going to ask questions about it at this point, I am just going to revel in this moment and live in it being thankful for my new lease on life.  I still have some healing to do, and it is still a long road ahead of me to fully recover but this girl is not complaining one tiny bit!



  1. So so happy for you!!! Let's talk about you doing a guest post; your story needs to be shared.

  2. I'm thrilled that you are doing so well!! Congratulations and to many more years of quality life!

  3. Total and complete permagrin down her in L.A. Lots of love to you, San. Hope you are celebrating tonight and dancing under the moon and stars.

  4. Shanna,
    I would be thrilled to do a guest post. I will be out of town beginning the 28th of March for about 3 weeks. I might be able to get something done before that (most likely). I will start working on it Monday :)
    Best of health and many blessings to you my friend!

  5. Beth,
    Thank you so much! I am thrilled to say the very least. I still have a lot of work to do but at least it isn't quite so scary anymore.
    Big love and many healthy blessings to you!

  6. San,
    Dancing under the rain is more like it right now here in Portland, but I am not complaining one single bit! I am celebrating every single moment of every single day my friend :)
    I love you!

  7. Hi! My family and I are from Seattle, Washington. My dad has an early stage of bile duct Cancer, in the common bile duct. (Also, diagnosed with Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis.) He had his gallbladder removed due to gallbladder cancer in the spring of 2011 and because of the gallbladder cancer he is not able to get a liver transplant. I have read your blog up and down and it is great! I am just looking for diet suggestions, (he is shoveling veggies, fruit and vitamins) and any other tricks you have up your sleeve! If we can diminish the Cancer for a 5 years time, he may have a liver transplant. Thank you for your great inspiration!

  8. Laura,
    This is just so fabulous. You are amazing, truly amazing!!! Congratulations to you and best wishes for many many more joyous healthy years!!! Orna.