|On the edge of Mesa Arch looking down|
Any of us who is lucky enough to have a life after cancer has had those concerns. You know the ones I am talking about; "will it come back?" "what is that pain?", "why am I so tired all of the time?", "will my lab results look good?", "will my scan be good?", and so on. We were all (if we were lucky) coached in what to expect from treatments (hair loss, nausea, loss of appetite, neuropathy, feeling as if you've been hit by a Mack truck) but we were never coached for how to get on with life if you survive. What do you do? Do you rest for a while and try to recover from chemo and if so how long? What if you decide to go back to work and the cancer comes back and you have to quit and reapply for all of the benefits and assistance all over again, something that has taken months and months to get in the first place. What if you work full time and find that it is too much for you right now and have to quit or cut your hours back so much you can't afford to live. What do you tell people about why you have been out of the workforce for over 2 years? What is that pain in my side/leg/head/arm/throat anyway? Is it the cancer coming back? Did I take my supplements/meds today? Did I eat enough vegetables? Yeah, you know what I'm talking about. Fun isn't it?
|someone else making fun of "the system"|
I was browsing some of my favorite blogs the other day and came across my friend Sonnet's awesome blog For the Love of Food. Sonnet writes about food and good, nutritious, healthy, vegetarian food at that. She has so many delicious recipes and is very knowledgeable about nutrition, food and health. I noticed that she is a holistic health coach, something that I have really been looking into lately, and sent her an email asking about it. Turns out that she is attending the same institute I am have been looking into and she has nothing but good things to say about it. Sonnet and I both attended Antioch University in Seattle and as a result have high expectations of the schools we choose to attend and how they structure the learning process. It was such a relief to hear positive things about the school. I am very excited to begin the process of obtaining my certification to be a holistic health coach. From my experiences over the past two years, all of the research, and all of the questions I get regarding my health and cancer diagnosis, and cancer assassination, I feel that it is my calling in life to help others become healthier. This certification will allow me to do that even better by taking the knowledge and first hand experience I already have and integrating it with more knowledge of how to do so while also expanding on the knowledge I already have, plus I will be credible and certified having a platform from which to operate and share such knowledge professionally. The program is great! They even help with setting up your own practice and give you all kinds of tools and resources to do so. It is a 12 month program but in 6 months I can become certified meaning that by the first of next year I can be independent and off "the system" while helping others and doing what I love to do! I even got a scholarship to attend, but the bummer is that it costs $5,000 and my scholarship is only for $500 plus I get another $500 off if I pay in full bringing it down to only $4,000. Yeah right! I live on $7 a day! So in the meantime I am making mobiles to sell. Let me know if you want one. Saving to buy supplies to make some jewelry from my tumbled agates that I found on my rock hunting trips so I can sell that too and scheming about how in the world I am going to make some money and get off "the system".
|some of my tumbled agates waiting|
to become jewelry
Big news! My naturopath at The Center for Traditional Medicine in Lake Oswego (Dr. Peterson) wants me to start a new treatment. High dose vitamin C intravenously. Vitamin C is well knows as an antioxidant when taken orally but when given in high doses intravenously it actually becomes an oxidant creating hydrogen peroxide and killing cancer cells. It also is supposed to be great for relieving side effects of chemotherapy such as fatigue (did I mention that I've been sleeping about 12 hours every day), chemobrain, rebuilding and renewing cells, with the added bonus of the feeling of abundant energy and wellbeing. Sign me up!! Sounds great huh? I bet is is great! The not so great part about it is that it costs a lot more than the nutritional IV's with glutathione that I have been getting for the past two years. Another one of those things that has to change because I am in that place right now. Cancer dead, no more chemo, no more pharmaceuticals, and needing to change and get on with the next steps of treatment after cancer. The first three months of the treatment is going to cost $800 as I need to get IV's once and sometimes twice a week. Those IV's are also administered over a period of 3-5 hours so it also means I will be in the clinic a lot again for a little while until I get built up to the level I need, after that it is a weekly thing. I am super psyched to start this treatment so that I can begin to feel normal again, have enough energy to stay awake all day (until at least 8 or 9 at night) and enough mental clarity to concentrate on something more than a sit-com. I am not going to even schedule my first treatment there until I know that I can afford to pay for at least the first 3 months though. Ahem....so if anyone out there feels like they can spare a few dollars feel free to contact The Center for Traditional Medicine (503-636-2734) and put some financial loving into my account there. I know times are hard and the economy sucks but I will say that every little cent helps the cause. I hate having to ask for help, it sucks. I want to help not always have to be helped. I know that day will come one day though and I will be able to give back to so many what has been given to me, good health and a wonderful and abundant life.
I am also going to put the call out again for any unused gift cards that anyone has hanging around. Those were so incredibly helpful before and I definitely made good use of them. There are other ways to donate to help cover medical expenses such as the ChipIn on this page or directly into email@example.com on PayPal. Every little bit makes such a difference and I am so very grateful for the generosity of you all.
So that is pretty much the long and short of it all. Where to go now...how to get on with it and as Dr. Markham said "no one ever told me that getting on with life after cancer would be so hard". But I am thrilled to be alive and have this problem. The alternative just wasn't going to work for me.
Cancer Can Suck It!