|Spring in February|
I came back from a visit in Seattle where my plans were put on hold for a while due to the snow event in town. I got a lot of good visiting time in with my mom and a friend from out of town. He brought along his son Ben and we made some really awesome Mentos & Coke rockets. It was a fun time! Then I got to go up to Crystal Mountain for two glorious days of skiing and more visiting old friends of mine from my years at the mountain back in the early 90's. The first day was filled with little powder stashes off piste and softly falling snow. The next day was gloriously sunny! The summit of Crystal is only 12 miles from the summit of Mt Rainier and the mountain was out in all her glory that day as I had lunch at the summit house restaurant with my friend Liz, her husband Lyle and two other friends I haven't seen in years. Liz and Lyle graciously offered up their guest room for me the night before, made me dinner and breakfast AND even let me use her awesome jacuzzi tub after my day of skiing. Thank you Liz and Lyle!!! I really needed some mountain air and your good company.
When I got back to Portland at the beginning of the week I have to admit I was a little apprehensive. I didn't want to have that feeling when I walked through my door into the apartment. You know, the one where you'd wished you didn't have to be home. But to my pleasant surprise I was quite relieved and a little amazed to find that it actually felt good to be home. That was a great victory for me! I wasn't repulsed and that was a good thing. Another surprise I got was that there was a letter from the housing authority in my mailbox stating that I qualify for section 8 housing. I just needed to return some paperwork and the process starts, complete with an "orientation" sometime soon that explains exactly what the hell section 8 housing is....apparently it is entirely different from "public assisted housing" which I am living in. Both are through the state so it seems only efficient and entirely less confusing if the same organization that handles both would inform you of all of your options and place you on all of the housing lists and availabilities or at least make them not quite so murky to navigate. Actually I looked into this many months ago and even spoke with a representative who told me that she "didn't know what to tell me because she didn't know what I wanted from her" and that "I would be waiting for a long LONG time before I even heard from them because (her exact words here people) It's the government and they have thousands of applications and it takes forever, years sometimes infact". She was incredibly rude and left me with the excuse of why she wasn't going to help me because it is the governments fault. She is the government worker, isn't it her fault? Her fault that people cannot get any useful information what so ever about the differences and procedures for each different type of housing assistance? One of my pet peeves is when someone doesn't want to do their job and you have to do it for them, OR when they don't do their jobs and you end up with cancer (that ones for you Swedish, Group
I thought I would take advantage of this opportunity to get out of town and head out to the Oregon coast toward Manzanita. I just love that place. Nice and quiet compared to all of the other touristy towns nearby like Cannon Beach or Lincoln City. My girlfriend and I are going together with her pup Dusty. It is an agate hunting and driftwood gathering day and it is also supposed to be sunny. BONUS! If we are lucky the wind might not be blowing as hard as it is here in town. I think I need to charge my camera.
|Urea before mixing|
I had a nutritional IV on Wednesday and got to see my naturopath. He had my order for the new treatment I am starting, a giant whopping jug (2.5Kilos) of Urea. It looks like coarse salt or sugar. I take 25 grams every day in juice high in phytoflavinoids such as berry or pomegranate juices. I have been using blueberry and/or pomegranate and I mix half water with half juice because the juice is just too tart for me straight, plus it makes the juice last longer as most berry juices are pretty expensive and the organic ones are usually around $1-$2 more. It really doesn't have a taste thankfully. If it does the tartness of the juice disguises it really well. Here is more about Urea if you missed my last post about it's cancer fighting properties.
|Mixed w/blueberry juice and filtered water|
1. I wasn't disgusted to be home. It actually felt good. Hey! Im running with it :)
2. I am going to be volunteering at the Audubon Society in Portland soon. I am very excited about this! I am thinking that it will help me get my feet wet again in the "real world" and give me some idea if I will be able to handle working on a part/full time basis anytime soon. PLUS I get to hang out with the birds! And who knows, it just might open some doors to a career or at the very least I will get to meet some new awesome people.
3. Mentally I am feeling a little more clear headed all the time and that is good. I can't really tell a difference from the day before but I can certainly tell a difference from a month ago. I ordered a book called "Totally Tangled" to help me out a bit. It is like yoga for the brain I have heard. I am very excited to get it in the mail. Powell's books had a free shipping weekend and I had a credit from some of the books I sold to them so this was perfect! It certainly looks like something that I am going to love!
|Ear to ear perma-powder grins|
|BD Joule skis with Dynafit AT bindings|
5. My dad is moving back soon! Which reminds me, I really need to give him a call. He is buying my plane ticket back to TN and I am helping him pack and drive out. It will be so much fun!!! We aren't bringing much from TN, just a truck with canopy so the drive will be cake. We are also stopping along the way at things that interest us, perhaps we will do some rockhounding...what am I saying? OF COURSE WE WILL :) I am going to be happy to have my father around closer. Tennessee is a long way from the PNW.
I haven't taken a pharmaceutical (other than hormone replacement therapy while my body gets back into sync) in over a month. It feels so good! My last chemo treatment was on Nov 30th and that also feels good. I'm gaining weight (125# now, that's 10 pounds!) but in all honesty I can stop now. I will have to get new clothes soon if I don't and I can't afford that nor do I want to.
|The best juicer ever!|
To be very honest once again it has been hard. The hardest part was changing directions, from chemotherapy, fatigue, nausea, and all those other nasty side effects to a natural, holistic approach to treating my cancer. It was scary and very uncertain. I have a PET scan in March to see what's going on on a cellular level. I am banking on the FACT that it is going to look awesome!
|Neptune & I in Cabo|