Friday, December 31, 2010

Day 241, New Years Eve

It is the last day of the year.  Back in March I didn't even know if I would be alive to see today.  All the statistics said I wouldn't be.  I have broken those statistics and made my own now.  Every day is a blessing, but I also know now something that I didn't know then.  I AM GOING TO LIVE FOR A LONG LONG TIME! Guaranteed! Yes I may die of cancer, but who is to say that I wouldn't have already died if I did not know I had cancer, right??

2010 has been the best year of my life.

I got diagnosed with cancer which sounds pretty crappy, but this diagnosis is what has completely changed my life all for the better.  I appreciate so much more about myself, my world, my friends, people I don't even know, my family, my cat and dog, my boyfriend, everyone and everything that I would have normally not even thought about.  I take better care of myself, I eat better food, use better products in my home and on my body and try to listen to what my body is telling me (doesn't always work but hey, i'm trying).
Everything in my life is so much better now.  Yes, a lot of the time I don't feel the greatest and my liver hurts but I know that will not always be.  It hurts because the chemo is destroying the cancer, things like cancer don't just die peacefully, it goes out kicking and screaming and all the way hoping it will take you down with it. Not gonna happen.

I wish you all the very best for the upcoming year.
I hope you make good choices for yourself and your family.
I hope you wake up every morning and are thankful for what you have.
I hope you give and receive love freely.
I hope you are not too hard on yourself for what it is you think you should be doing instead.
I hope you consider our environment and make appropriate choices to preserve it.
I hope you eat better, organic, natural, no chemicals etc, so you can live a long time.
I hope you know that you are loved and appreciated every day.
I hope you can see the beauty and good in everything, even the bad.
I hope you have the very best year ever, but remember to take it day by day, because we do not have a tomorrow, none of us do.  All we have is THIS moment, act and live like it was your last.

Much love and happiness,
The Cancer Assassin


  1. Blessings to you, dear Laura! What a beautiful testament to LIFE, and the power of LOVING LIFE! I am so grateful to have you as a friend, and am in complete agreement with you about the very blessedness of every day.
    Here's a big hug and a joyful laugh of delight~ love you!!

  2. Reading your post left me with tears in my eyes, not tears of sadness. Tears of joy and gratitude of the glimpse of the beautiful world you show me. You are an inspiration, you rock my world, you're one of the, if not THE, most beautiful people in the world and I am lucky to know you.

  3. Ok, now you guys are definitely going to make me cry :)

  4. Thank you..God bless you .. Cancer Disease