Day 63

Today was a productive day for me, unlike most days where I just wish that I could be more productive and scorn myself for not being.  I am not used to this whole "being tired all the time" thing.  I am an independent soul and it is tough to have to ask people to do things for me that I normally would be able to do myself.

Back to productivity....made a smoothie for breakfast with some shakti chai tea, spent an hour or so catching up on online tasks, ran some errands, did some grocery shopping, vacuumed, laundry, then it all got good.  Some tomato & vegetable soup for lunch with a green salad (yep, I even had enough energy to make lunch).   Then I had a nice foot soak in twice refreshed water with essential oils of geranium, lavender, chamomile, frankincense, myrrh, sage and epsom salt.  I was told by my massage therapist yesterday that soaking in water, even just soaking your feet, is the best way to drain your lymph glands.  Heck yeah! I love foot soaks and full body soaks so this is great news!

My hair is still falling out though, it is just now starting to become noticeable although you wouldn't know unless I showed you (or you saw the drain in my bathtub or my pillow).  Looks like it is time to get serious about purchasing a scarf or head wrap or wig or something of the sort.

I am still researching medical tourism.  I have some of my friends on it as well.  I figured that since no one in the US wants to give me a liver transplant then I need to start looking overseas.  The upside to the entire situation is that getting medical attention overseas is much cheaper than doing it in the states.  The downfall is that it is still out of my price range and even if I do get qualified for SSI and automatically get on the Oregon Health Plan it isn't going to cover it.

Speaking of fundraising, I want to give another shout out to all of my wonderful friends and friends of friends.  I am surrounded by the most amazing people in the world!  You all rock!  Thank you so much for all of your support, it is so incredibly appreciated and needed.

I want to take this opportunity to share with you something that is a little strange for me.  I thought it was weird to have to ask people to so so much for me but one thing that is just as weird if not even more so is the lack of brain power that I have had lately.  I have this little journal (the book with the tree on it) that I call my brain.  If it sounds important to me when I say it or someone tells it to me or when I think of it, I write it down in the brain.  I have to look back through it from time to time to make sure that I didn't space out on something important.  Seriously folks, it is hard to follow movies sometimes and it is even getting hard to read without feeling tired from having to concentrate so much.

Although I am here battling for my life, part of my life is my education.  My education is important to me because it is through my education that I am better able to protect the things I love. The things that give me life, inspiration and fill my heart and soul with peace, love, respect and excitement.  Nature, national parks, open space, clean water, trees, birds, insects, mountains, deserts, shorelines, tundras, all that is natural and good.  So to make a long story even longer my education is a great excuse for me to spend time doing what I love, it is just hard to focus on it at all, which is challenging.  I am presenting myself and my change project on June 15th at 1pm-ish at Antioch University if anyone would like to come and see my presentation you are all welcome to attend.  There should be some really great presentations both that day and the next.  My entire graduating cohort is presenting on their projects and there are some really wonderful projects going on.  It just goes to show that one person really can change the world.

Jeff is due home from school anytime now and he is bringing me a piece of raw/live cheesecake home from the Blossoming Lotus.  I love that stuff!  It is such a treat and is soooo good!

The pictures I've posted with this blog are pictures of some of the things that I have really been enjoying recently.  The Buddha Nose is the most wonderful salve ever!  My liver is tender to the touch and hurts like it is bruised sometimes and when I rub this on it it feels better!  It is awesome, thank you Sam!  You Can Heal Your Life was given to me by another friend and classmate (Thank you Elise!) and I am loving it!  The flowers are from our rose bushes in the front yard, they are so pretty!!  My Pot Pie just always cheers me up (she is snoozing on my feet right now as I type).

The rhodie is from Stephanie (she was with Jeff and I the day I got diagnosed with cancer).  It got planted about a month or so ago and we didn't think it would bloom this year, but lookey here!

Oh, I know this is so scattered but I wanted to mention that a friend of mine, Angela is organizing a benefit concert for me.  There will be three amazing acoustic bands.  It will take place on June 22nd at 8:30pm at the McMenamin's White Eagle (which is also supposed to be haunted by the way for all of my creepy friends out there) in Portland, Oregon.  She also needs the help of anyone who would want to participate or volunteer in any way.  Please feel free to contact me if you would like to get in touch with her.  I would love to see anyone who can make it, please come and give me a hug...I love hugs :)  I can't wait!  It will be so much fun and I believe that there also may be a snowboard auction (maybe, not for sure yet, will keep you posted).  There are going to be posters and everything, how cool is that!?



Things are good, I feel good, my friends are amazing, life is beautiful, I can't wait to go for a hike, I also can't wait to see some friends this weekend that are coming to visit (you know who you are :) everything in my garden is sprouting and growing now, even the tomatoes in the pots and the herbs in the pots, YAY!!  You all take care of yourselves, really, eat organic, filter your water, rid yourselves of chemicals (there are natural alternatives that work just as well), your body/mind/spirit will thank you for it (as well as your friends and family).  If man made it don't eat it, if you can't pronounce it don't eat it.  Take time to reflect, think, meditate, exercise, relax, or just do what makes you happy, take a bath, soak your feet, be good to yourself.  I love and appreciate every one of you.

Cancer Can Suck It!

Day 58

Called the Mayo Clinic today, talked to them on my way to my chemotherapy appointment and to see my homeboy (my onc.) Turns out that I am not a candidate for a liver transplant (living or deceased) because I have so much cancer in my liver (all over all lobes) and a giant tumor (9cm) on the right side of it, that they wont transplant me for medical reasons that anyone has yet to explain to me. Apparently they said the cancer spread all over my liver and that is why they can't give me a new liver. Now, I know i am slow because of the whole chemo brain thing but does that make any sense to you? Come one guys! Give the girl a liver here cause if ya don't the cancer will spread outside of the liver and then things will get really ugly. Give the liver to someone who needs it, like ME dammit!

Sheesh.....like the old saying goes, guess if you want anything done right you just gotta do it yourself sometimes. I've gotta find my own inner owners manual, bust out the coveralls, roll up my sleeves and and get my thigh high cancer ass kicking boosts on and get medieval on those nasty little bastards!  I fried 'em today.  Yeah, take that!

Didn't qualify for social security because The City of Redmond, where I used to work, doesn't pay in to social security.  They have some other benefit account and you pay into that instead.  When I left there to go back to school for my MaEd I took it all out (about $5000) to live on while I was in grad school.  So now, nothin' honey :)  They said that I might qualify for some other benefit though and I will know about that at the beginning of June.  It depends on the severity or stage of my cancer and since I am what they call a "Stage IV" I will get through the system quicker because the diagnosis is grimmer.

Speaking of grim statistics, if you look up the statistics for cholangiocarcinoma they really don't look very good at all.  Here is how I feel about that.  These statistics are based on 60-70year old something people who already have other health problems like high cholesterol or diabetes or heart trouble or all of them and then some.  These are not statistics based on "Laura York".  I make my own damn statistics.  What you focus on expands.  I learned that from a wise friend long ago.

That's the news for the day.  Oh, Clark and I are having a contest it seems to see who can get the most hair on the floor.  Have a nice night, I'm gonna go zone out in front of the t.v. now and wait for my honey to get home from school.

And yes,

CANCER CAN SUCK IT!

Day 57

The appointment with the naturopath went well today. I got uber informed about how I can keep myself healthy during chemotherapy (AWESOME!). My suspicions about myself limiting my diet too much were also correct THANK GOODNESS! I ate some chicken (all natural of course) today with rice, beans, lettuce, guac, salsa, onions and it tasted like heaven! Don't get me wrong I am not even about to run out there and buy myself a steak with a side of potato loaded with butter and sour cream and some cookies and milk for dessert, Oh No!!! I am going to eat some eggs every now and then, some meat (chicken or fish) every now and then and I am no longer afraid to cook my vegetables. I wasn't entirely sold on the whole "raw" deal anyway, it just didn't seem to sit on my stomach very well, literally, and I am so glad I get to eat warm food. I just think my body tolerates warm food much better than raw uncooked food. I'm not trying to knock the raw thing, in moderation it is alright for me. I just can't do the 100% raw thing.

I did not hear from the Mayo Clinic today but that is alright, it was a busy day. I will be calling them tomorrow.

9am, appointment with social security to see if I qualify for disability benefits. Keep fingers crossed!!


I get to visit the chemo lounge again tomorrow at 12:45. woohoo....at least I have this beautiful prayer/healing blanket that my awesome friend Lynee made for me. There are strings tied into it where people tie knots and say a prayer of healing for me. It is one of the most awesome gifts ever and I am sitting under it right now at this very moment while I type. Thank you Lynee and thank you to all my friends who put their energy and prayers into it. It is so comforting I want to have it with me all the time.

Speaking of beautiful gifts, check out this awesome watercolor that my friend and tattoo artist Jesse made for me. It is his rendetion of what my tattoo inspired in him. I love this and have the perfect spot in the living room all planned out to hang it. This way I get to see it all the time. Thank you Jesse! I love it and so does everyone else who has seen it.


The headache still wont go away...I bet that after chemo tomorrow I will be so jacked up on steroids that I wont feel it anymore. I guess that is one good thing about steroids, maybe I will have the energy to clean the house, put the dishes away and finish the laundry. Maybe. Or maybe I will sit on the sofa and rest or watch a movie. I like to play it as it comes that way I am not disappointed if I didn't get something done.

Much love to all of you wonderful people!

Day 56

Sorry everyone for the delay in posting. It has been a busy week.

It is day 56. It feels like so much longer than that and somehow it also feels like I just found out. Being a cancer survivor has become a full time job requiring pretty much all of my attention and energy. There is always, and I mean always something to do.

I find myself wanting time for things such as yoga or meditation or relaxing or journaling but never being able to do them because I am on the phone making appointments or going to appointments or filling out paperwork or dealing with trying to find health care or disability or state insurance which for some reason or another I am apparently unqualified for.

I read constantly. I read books about how to try to stay alive and healthy. I read books to help me relax and visualize myself being healthy and alive and to assassinate those nasty cancer cells in my body. Whenever I hurt I tell myself it is just the cancer being assassinated.

It seems I have come pretty much glued to my laptop either doing research or filling out forms for some agency or another. I am almost always on it for about 3-4 hours a day and I wish I could say that most of it was for homework or pleasure but I can't. I am glad I purchased my mac before I found out, I like it so much better than my PC.

I have had headaches lately and I have never been one to be prone to getting them. I drink lots of water so I don't think that is why but I think it does have something to do with my diet and I am excited to see the naturopath tomorrow to find out how I can eat better. I have a feeling that I am limiting myself too much in my diet or maybe I'm just not eating enough. We will see.

Ok, so I am losing my hair. It isn't coming out in chunks but it is thinning. I don't mind really but I must say that it is pretty shocking to see so much hair not just in the drain, but on the floor or furniture or pillow or food or computer....you get the picture. I guess I might get to see how lumpy my head is after all. I know there are some good ones up there. Once, on my birthday (October 17) in about 2005 or 06 I was out playing disc golf with my friends Ryan and Zac and the wind started to blow like it does in the fall and the leaves were all blowing around in the air and it was really pretty. I pointed to it and something like "Wow guys look at how pretty that is" and all of the sudden WHAM! I got hit on the top of my head by something. It knocked me silly and I just swaggered around and looked at Ryan and Zac and wondered what they did to me or if I got hit by a crazy rogue disc. Ended up that the wind blew a branch about the size of my forearm out of the tree above me and I happened to be between it and the ground. Of all the things to happen and on your birthday too! I may just get to see the dent on my head from that pretty soon. At least I will have a good story to tell right?! heehee....

Ok, updates

I got a call from Sarah at the Mayo Clinic today. She said the doctor will be in tomorrow and he will be looking at my records. She will contact me when he is done to let me know what he said. They are two hours ahead of us here in the PNW so I am hoping to hear the word around lunchtime after my appointment with the naturopath. I will keep you posted on that. Keep fingers crossed for liver transplant.

Thursday is filled with a meeting with social security to see if I can qualify for disability. Then it is off to the chemo suite for some more toxic cocktail. mmmmmm......toxic cocktail.......Fry those suckers!!!!!


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIME FOR ANOTHER SHOUT OUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I have said it once, but it really needs to be said again.
I have the most amazing friends in the entire world, hands down, without a doubt I have the pleasure and blessing of knowing the most wonderful and selfless people in the world.

The repostings that you make on facebook are so incredibly helpful. Thank you all for what you do! You are utterly beautiful and amazing people and I appreciate and value every one of you more than you know. I am truly blessed to be able to share my life with you and I am proud to call you all my friends.


I have had many people ask me where to find the donation site for the ChipIn/PayPal account that I created. I just wanted to put a link on here to make it easy. You can also find it on day 37 (just click on April) of my blog. Again thank you so much for your contributions. You have no idea how much I appreciate it and how needed it is.


I just realized that anyone can repost this ChipIn site to their blog or website or maybe even to facebook under "Copy" at the bottomish of the box. Feel free to spread it around :)

Day 49

I was reading my last post and MAN WAS IT DEPRESSING! I mean really people...I guess everyone has poopy days every now and then though. Looks like mine was yesterday :)

So I am committed to a lively post this evening and here are the highlights...

Jeff built me a compost bin yesterday/today. He is going to put a lid on it, complete with hinges and a clear roof. It is going to be great! Since I eat/juice so many veggies and fruits now I can generate about 3 gallons of compost every 5 or so days. Add that to my new garden that my wonderful boyfriend also built and I will be growing and composting my own food. How cool is that!!! I think it is pretty cool.

So today I have felt the best I have felt since last Thursday and the whole porta-cath (it is actually called a "power port") ordeal. My stuff still hurts but not as much as yesterday and probably more than tomorrow so that is good :) I cleaned the house today. Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I am a clean freak. Unorganized, dirty things make me feel all stressed out and discombobulated, and when the house is in disarray it drives me nuts (and most likely I drive Jeff nuts too). So I am proud to say that my home is vacuumed, mopped (well, the kitchen at least), garbage taken out, strays put away and organized and IT FEELS SOOO GOOD! Now I am relaxing on the sofa tending to my blog. Go! Go! PowerPor!t

I have to once again give a big shout out to all of my wonderful friends.

THANK YOU

One never fully understands how wonderful their friends are until they are truly in need of them. I would like to ask all of you out there to tell your friends how much they mean to you as if you may never ever have that chance again. A friend is such a special gift and we often forget to tell them so. I am so gifted and thankful for all of my wonderful friends. You are special, selfless people and I love you all.
Live like there is no tomorrow.

If man made it don't eat it.

AND

Cancer can suck it!

Day 48

I am still recovering from my little chest port implantation from last Thursday. I got to take off the bandages this morning and WOW! It freaked me out a bit. Never having had any type of surgery before and only 4 stitches on my thumb last year after my incident with the cheese grater, the giant bulge and stitches on my chest are a little WEIRD to say the least. Here is a kinda gross pic of it.


I have been in contact recently with the wife of someone from Crystal Mountain that is the GM there who also has (I believe I should say HAD) cholangiocarcinoma (the same thing as me). His wife, Kim, told me about his ordeal and that they went to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester MN and she swears that is why he is still alive today, well that and the fact that he never once thought he wouldn't survive. She urged me to RUN and not walk to the phone and make an appointment there. I will be doing just that.

I called them already about a week or so ago and found out that they wanted upfront $5000 just to see me. If I do get in to get a liver transplant that will cost at least 1 Million dollars, or 1,000,000!!!!! I have no insurance. I have no idea how I will ever get through this financially. Will Obama save me? Will I win some lottery that I have never even bought a ticket for? Will I just fix my own liver myself and be done with it. It is so hopeful and so overwhelming at the same time. I am excited that I might be able to get a liver, and I am excited to go talk with a kick ass specialist at one of the most respected Clinics in the world. Can they save my ass?


It is overwhelming because I don't know where in the world I can get the money I would need to do what needs to be done. 1 million is a LOT of money. Will they deny me healthcare or a transplant because I cannot afford it? Ohhhhh stress is not good! I guess I will just try to come up with $5000 somehow then see what happens after that. It is these type of days that I think fuels my funky strange dreams of late.

Last night I dreamed I was almost eaten alive by wolves while visiting on of my favorite places in the woods, then I dreamed that a giant snake was swimming after me in a pool of water where I was swimming. Then I was living with a tribe of native americans and they all abandoned me in the middle of the night because I was a bad omen. Needless to say I had some pretty sleepless nights lately.

So Jeff and I went to run some errands, Costco for T.P. and kitty litter, then Home Depot for lumber for the compost bin and more soil for the garden. I was sitting on everything I could find to sit on at the Depot. I was so tired. As soon as we got home I asked if he would mind if I went and laid down, of course he didn't so here I am posting on my blog and feeling quite wiped out. I wonder if I will even have energy for dinner tonight. It is hard to fix dinner when you have no energy. But what is harder is trying to go out and eat instead. I have found that there are only a very small handful of restaurants that I can eat at anymore and those 3 or 4 get a little old after a while.

So while I lay here, my kitty is keeping me company. She always knows when I don't feel good and snuggles with her little tuna breath up to me making biscuits on my shoulder with her cute little fuzzy kitty paws. I love my kitty girl!

Ok, time to pass out for a while...Maybe I will have nice dreams about nice things.

And yes,

Cancer Can Suck It!

Day 44

I got up really early this morning to go to my 7:30 appointment to get my portacath thingy put in. The nurses and everyone at the hospital (Legacy Good Samaritan) are always as pleasant as pie and today was no exception. My mom and Jeff came and as we sat in the waiting area to be escorted to the SPO (special procedure ops) I met a lady named Laura and waved hello to my financial counselor Bryan.

We went in to the area where the nurses get you all prepped for surgery, met the doctor, joked around, was serious then he left me completely informed as to what was going to go on. Next a lady nicknamed Kiwi (it was obvious why) who was my anesthesiologist and also a complete RIOT informed first and foremost after telling me what her name was, that she had a cocktail waiting for me....HELLS YEAH! I said bring it on. She was so what I needed, we burned rubber around the corner and into the surgery room making a pit stop for a couple of warm blankets along the way, then she backed me into the new fancy surgery room, slid me over to the table, got me all comfy, gave me a blue bonnet, oogled my tattoo, had to scrub my neck twice because we spent too much time oogling and then she asked if I was ready for the cocktail. The next thing I remember is waking up while they were finishing up. A little freaky, and so I said "Hey, just so you guys know Im awake." and they said, "does it hurt can you feel anything?" and I said "no, but you wanna hear some jokes?" I launched into my 3 staple jokes, saving the best for last of course, and had them in stitches (pun intended). They will not soon forget me.

I got back to my recovery suite (yeah right) and Jeff and my mom were there waiting with Naked Orange Juice in hand. My boyfriend is just simply THE BEST EVER! I ate some lunch, harassed some nurses, got my clothes back on and was escorted to the front of the building where the valet had just pulled our car around. For going in to get cut up not too bad huh?

Ever since yesterday at chemo the steroid has had me pretty amped up. Had trouble sleeping last night. Amped up all morning this morning, but now...wow coming down finally. I am getting ready to go into a type of hibernation pretty soon. Maybe watch some movies (maybe even the ones on the inside of my eyelids) who knows.....hard tellin' not knowin'

So, I am getting Chemo Brain pretty bad lately, but in some sadistic odd way it is kind of fun to be able to have an excuse for being spacey. I am usually not spacey so it is like having an alter ego or something, or an evil twin. Needless to say, it is impossible to focus on any thing at all, and multitasking, FORGET ABOUT IT, just can't happen. Homework, what homework?

Ok, that is my story for tonight. Gonna go eat some coconut bliss ice cream, vanilla flavor with some fresh berries and blueberry agave syrup. Have a great night everyone and lot of love, peace and light to you all and as usual

CANCER CAN SUCK IT!

Day 43

Today was chemo day #2, I lost 3 lbs since last week so my dosage of the actual chemo drug was decreased slightly to compensate and I also found out that I am not receiving a strong dose of the drugs (cisplatin & gemzar) in the first place. I think something must be doing a good job because I feel like I can breathe in deeper than I could before. I think it is finally time to go out for a hike and spending some time in the garden this weekend. I get two weeks off of chemo, don't go back until the 20th :) WOOT! That means one week of feeling tired and puky (but getting to relax on the sofa and watch movies :) then up for some time in the woods.

I want to thank everyone who has contributed to either the US Bank or to the Chip In site posted on one of my earlier blog postings, this is going to come in really helpful for me. I don't know how many or who knows this but I have no insurance at all. I applied for but was not eligible for Oregon Health Plan, I am not eligible for Medicaid, I have a conversation on the 19th with someone from the disability office to see if I am eligible for that. My savings account is wearing thinner by the day (shopping at Whole Foods and buying organic is not cheap) all the herbs and acupuncture, naturopathy, alternative healing blah, blah, blah.....well it is just a drastic change of life. It is like you just woke up one day and found out that everything around you is toxic, you simply cannot live your life anymore the way you have been living it up to this point. You find the need to kind of clear out all the clutter and give at least half of what you own or have lying around that you thought you were so attached to to the Goodwill. Anyway, back to my point. At this point in time that money is just going to sit there collecting some interest until I need it for a very good reason (such as a liver transplant). Right now, I am trying to gather information on what the criteria is for a liver transplant of different places in the country, or even out of the country for that matter. The Mayo Clinic wants $5000 just for me to walk in their door, and I think that is pretty f___ed! I don't even know what their criteria is yet so there is not way I can afford just to go there and see. I am being as frugal as I can with what I got to work with. but I want you to know that it will definitely go to a good purpose :) but you already knew that huh??
So, chemotherapy today...It went well, didn't take as long as last time because they let it drip through faster and they also did not have to repeatedly stab me with the giant freaking straw that they thread through my vein. My mom and I watched episodes of JibJab and funny YouTube videos while Jeff worked. Came home around lunch, build a little fire in the pit and sat outside and ate lunch. Black bean veggie soup with fresh avocado and cilantro and a side of flax chips and pico made for a delish dinner. Oh yeah, topped it all off with a vegan live cheesecake (made from cashew cream and live sprouted crust) and a piece of raw live fudge. HEAVEN! I'm definitely getting better at this food thing I think.

Tomorrow morning, bright and early (7:30), I get my porta cath put in place. It is a day surgery, probably out by 2 or 3 in the afternoon. My first scar from a hospitalization ever. Virgin skin to that kind of stuff. Never had any sort of issues that required it before. That's ok, scars are cool, especially when they are by one of your tattoos :)

I kept freaking the nurses out today, well twice...and I always try to save it because I don't want to cry wolf too much. But they would adjust the IV or the tape and I would say "OW! Just kidding :) Wonder if they think that is funny, maybe I shouldn't do it anymore......bad juju? or just trying to keep it light?

Anyway, I am jacked up on the steroids they gave me for nausea and feel like I could write all night but I will leave you to your peace. It is probably a great time to read, yeah, read.

Peace, love and light to you all!

Cancer Can Suck It!

Day 42

I had an interesting day yesterday at a visit with an alternative healer, It was very powerful, beautiful, profound and I will most definitely be returning. Also made my appointment with my new naturopath who was highly recommended from the healer's own family as well as herself, apparently this guy has worked miracles. Good thing I believe in miracles.
Yeah, my old naturopath was a quack selling snake oil I felt, wont be returning to Dr Kim to say the least.

More chemotherapy tomorrow. One last time for the nurses to take it out on my veins. Once for blood work when I arrive (small needle) then the damn capri sun straw that gets threaded into my vein for fluids and cisplatin and gemzar the two chemo drugs. Then I sit for about 4 hours letting the slow drip burn those little cancercells chrispy and dead while I play on my laptop or sleep or read or all of the above. Jeff usually brings me some super yummy vegan grub from The Blossoming Lotus. YUM!


I become a cyborg and get my little port installed somewhere around my collarboneish area. is a bulb type thing that has a little tube that feeds directly into my giant neck vein making taking blood and inserting and IV for chemo or any reason a cinch and absolutely pain free. That's what I like :) Does this mean I'm a Treky? Or did I even spell that right?



Last but definitely not least I wanted to take this moment to tell you all, every single one of you, just how much I love you all and how much it means to me that I have your support. That is the absolute greatest feeling in the entire world, to know that others are thinking about you and thinking good things. I love, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE all my beautiful cards and I re-read them often and usually cry every time with all of the beautiful words that are contained inside. It is with your help that I am able to be so strong throughout this and I am appreciative beyond any words known to man as to how to adequately express my gratitude.

I love every one of you, you are all angels whether you think so or not.
Much love peace and light

Day 40 cont.

We went to Francis (one of my favorites) for breakfast then we went out to REI for the fun of it (my man got me some sexy new glasses) and then to Powell's bookstore where I can check off Creative Visualization by Gawain and The Raw Food Detox Diet by Natalia Rose.

This is when I got tired. Lately when I get tired it is like I hit the wall. No warning, just means it's time to get horizontal and unconscious as quickly as possible. I have to say that this much lounging and sleep has felt so great. The only thing that sucked is that poor Tiff and Jay didn't get their usual "dorky" me, they got pretty tired me. I knew they didn't mind but I still wish we could have gone for a hike or something.

I mentioned the fund my classmate Carl was so nice to set up for me at US Bank well I forgot to mention why this fund is important. I have heard that there are other hospitals and institutes our there that do not have such stringent criteria for liver transplant. The Mayo Clinic for example is one that fits this bill. They require a $5000.00 deposit before I even walk through their door. Being a college student with, well, lets just say a lot of student loans, it is not hard to imagine that I don't have that money just laying around.

Next I plan to go to a retreat. I am already going to Harmony HIlls on hood canal (it is free) for cancer survivors to have a few days to themselves to heal and relax. Next, I am highly considering the Kushi Institute or something very similar. These natural and alternative route is no less expensive than the traditional western kind with one week at such a retreat totaling around $2000 not including travel.

On another note I just made one of the best berry smoothies ever! Watermelon, strawberry, blueberry, raspberry, coconut water, coconut bliss ice cream, hemp protein powder and almond milk. YUM!

Ok, time to get some more sleep. Take care of yourselves and if man made it don't eat it!

and as usual,

CANCER CAN SUCK IT!

Day 40

Mary Mary quite contrary how does your WHEATGRASS grow?
Who has skills? I need to grow pretty large quantities of wheatgrass, since I make a shot every day that uses the amount of grass in one large square unit. So that means I will be purchasing a grow light and Jeff will be constructing me a little planting bench in the garage. Just what I've always wanted, so YAY!
So if anyone knows how to sprout and grow a large amount of wheatgrass then I am in need of some assistance:)

Today is hang out with Tiff and Jay day!!! 2nd try, since last nights episode didn't go over so well :)

Love and peace and light to you all,

Time to go play for a while today, then it is grilled veggies and fish by our new fire cauldron with some good friends.

CANCER CAN SUCK IT!