Sunday, June 12, 2011

We've got a little catching up to do...

Mom and I at SeaTac bright and early excited for Cabo in a few hours :)
Wow! It feels like forever since I have posted.  I will try to give the condensed version then I will elaborate some on the exciting stuff, sound good? So, grab yourself a nice cup of tea or juice or a smoothie, kick your feet up, sit back, relax and enjoy the story :) I hope you like it :)

The trip up to Seattle to meet my mom was nice.  I got to stop in Tacoma and visit my friend Tiffany, we went out for a nice lil hike through the Point Defiance park, very similar to Forest Park here in PDX or Discovery Park in Seattle.  We took her dogs Carbon and Halle and had a very nice time.  Her husband got off work a little early and we were all able to hang out a bit before bed time, THEN he made us blueberry pancakes for breakfast the next morning, YUM! Thanks Jay! The next time you are here I will make some for you ;)

My whole body is in the shade from
my giant sunhat! It's awesome!
Then it was up to Seattle via wonderful Tiff & Jay to my mama's house in Ballard we made last minute errand runs to REI and Whole Foods for various items.  We wanted to bring food with us so we wouldn't have to eat out every night (it worked brilliantly!) pack good (not full of chemicals) sunscreen in the checked baggage so we wouldn't have to use the icky stuff (we were betting that any we found there would be full of chemicals and they were) and exchange some stuff at REI that wasn't working out for some stuff that worked out wonderfully, suck as my awesome white sunhat that has a tie string inside it so it is infinitely adjustable, it is 50 SPF, it is white so it stays cool and reflects the sun, and it is BIG and wide so it actually covers my shoulders too pretty well and that is great cause my shoulders get fried usually.  But I also am a strict sunscreen user and re-applier, so as much as I love the sun I also am safe about it...I figure I've got enough problems to deal with and don't need to add melanoma to the list.
At SeaTac getting ready to find our gate :)
My favorite person I met in Cabo, Fausto
Then it was SeaTac bright and early (5:30am) to catch our connecting flight in LA, and it was first class :) My uncle had so many air miles racked up from his previous job and they were going to expire so he let us use them for transportation for me, my aunt and my mom to and from Cabo San Lucas.  My aunt has a friend who owns a time share at Pueblo Bonito in the Sunset Beach Resort/Spa on the Pacific side of the peninsula, so it was very reasonable and split 3 ways equals next to nothing as far as $!!!  It was absolutely beautiful! I felt like I was on fantasy island or something, it was so pretty! Sunset Beach is really classy and I was very pleased

In the carrito with our favorite driver Fausto.
to be a guest there and hope to be able to do it again in the future. I have never been waited on hand and foot as I was at their resort.  The service was truly wonderful and the staff was so nice.  I met someone named Fausto and he was a carrito driver.  The roads in the resort were windy and steep running up and down the hillside connecting all the buildings, shops, restaurants, pools, cigar bars, lobby, spa, chapel, jewelry store, salon, deli, etc together.  He came to pick us up on the first day of our stay there.  We told him we had just arrived and had not seen around the complex yet and he gave us a wonderful little quick tour! He showed us the peacocks, the flamingoes, the sky pool up at the very top of the mountain that has a 360 degree view, all the other pools and restaurants and shops and pointed out the owners home on a nearby hilltop complete with putting green and heli-pad.  For the entire time we were there whenever he would see me he would say or call out "Hello Laura! How are you today?" ALWAYS remembering my name!  He was so friendly! Fausto, if you are reading this, thank you so much for making our stay in Cabo even more special and friendly because of you and your kindness.  Sending well wishes of health, peace, love and light to you and your family. Keep smiling and making peoples days, you are great at it!

Here are some pictures of the resort and its windy roads that are just big enough for the carrito to fit on with maybe a ped or two on the side.  And a nice picture of the sky pool....ahhhhh
Carrito
The windy roads of Sunset Beach 
The Sky Pool

I will get you started with this installment for now, it is 2am and even though I am not tired I am going outside for a quick walk around the block so that I may be able to come back and get some sleep.  Amazing what fresh air can do for you.  More soon! And if you are one of the two people still waiting on your mobile (you know who you are) it is coming very very soon...i apologize a million times for my tardiness in getting those completed and out to you.  I have not forgotten though :)

Friday, May 13, 2011

The journey begins. Day 1 of vacation from obligation :)

I am now relaxing on the train to Tacoma.  I'm on my way to visit a friend that I haven't seen in almost half a year, even though she only lives two hours away.  Crazy how busy life gets sometimes.  I can at least give her her Christmas present now :)

It feels so good to be going somewhere where I have no obligations at all.  14 days of NO doctors appointments, chemotherapy, nutritional IV's, blood draws, or any of the other daily chores and routines.  I really need a break like this.  My vacation began about two hours ago.  As the miles from my home in Portland grow larger and larger my stress begins to shed like the layers of an onion.  I wonder what I will find in the middle :)

My cat was already mad at me.  She was protesting yesterday by napping in my carryon all day preventing me from packing.  Clark (the dog) was extra concerned this morning blocking me from getting to my bag and even following me more closely than usual giving me the worried eyes.  We had a talk.

If you haven't gotten your mobile yet, my apologies for being so lazy...it will be there shortly after I return...

Again, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU so much for the generous gifts from my Amazon Wish List (my supplements).  You have no idea how much this helps! It took me about 2 hours to organize and pack my vitamins and supplements for 14 days.

I am about 48 hours from Cabo.  I cannot wait! My uncle Casey is the generous person who gave my aunt, my mom and myself his air miles to use for our flights and we even get to fly first class on the way there!  I have never even sat in first class before! What a treat! Then my aunt has a friend who let us use their timeshare so we got a great deal on our lodging as well.  Basically a pretty much free trip and nothing really can beat that :)  We are loading up suitcases with good organic food staples so we do not have to spend a ton of money on eating, PLUS we will most likely eat healthier this way too.  That doesn't mean that I am not going to be indulging in some seafood and fruit every chance I get.  I am quite interested to find out how good the local food is.

I have been in the greatest mood lately in anticipation of my vacation.  As I was busy packing up and doing chores yesterday the phone rang and it was the nurse practitioner from my "regular" doc's office calling to give me my pap smear results.  (They do it by phone and contact you to give you your results even if there is nothing to report and the results are normal. Very friendly clinic.)  Well, she got a serious tone in her voice and I KNEW she wasn't going to give me good news.  Instantly my life flashed before my eyes for the SECOND time in the last 14 months.  I instantly flew into a hot flash and my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest and my vision was narrowing and getting all fuzzy and I had all these thoughts going through my head as she told me that "my results were not normal".
Ok, FREAK OUT! No, keep you composure, its nothing, FREAK, NO, breathe! Ok she said, they tested for all the CHPV, HPV etc and everything comes back negative, even pre-cancerous cells are not present etc. *IM STILL WORRYING AT THIS POINT* Then she starts to calm me down, I ask a ton of questions, and she offers me an explanation that I accepted reluctantly but with enough evidence she pretty much convinced me that it was wonky because of the chemotherapy and pharmaceuticals I am on.  I buy that.  Sounds good.  PHEW!!  The last thing I needed was to hear "hey, you now have ovarian cancer", especially the day before my vacation.  But anyone who has ever had cancer knows that your little (or big) demon follows you around all the time making you think that every little headache is brain cancer, or every rash is melanoma, etc.. so the worry never ends.  I don't think that it ever will.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

More of my favorite products...and other news!

Welcome back!

I want to toss in a quick update on the progress of the assassination :)
My oncologist was very pleased with my blood analysis at yesterdays appointment.  I am still low on red and white blood cells and my platelets are still below 100 but the liver functions are all registering as normal still so that is great news! I have been thinking more about the long term affects of chemotherapy since it looks as if I will not be looking to end my chemotherapy treatments any time in the near future.  Doc says that "...I hope we can keep doing this for a long time"...meaning that the protocol I am on is the best one for my situation and chemo is going to be a part of my life for a while and I need to get used to that.  Luckily I have been able to go back to the naturopath for some more nutritional IV's.  The month or so that I was unable to get them due to financial stress really made me realize just how important these IV's with GLUTATHIONE are to my overall health and quality of life as well as protecting my body from the punishing long term effects of the chemotherapy treatments.  Cisplatin is particularly known for screwing up your kidneys (it just destroys them) and I am worried that in 5 years I will have to be on dialysis or something...and I definitely DON'T want that!  Plus the IV's give me more energy and just make me feel better all the way around and allow me to peel myself off the couch on the weekends to go PLAY outside! And that is a very good thing in my book :)  Now on to more fun stuff :)


I have decided to spend some more time in the bathroom showcasing more products in there just because it is the place where we start our day, where we use the most concoctions of lotions, gels, sprays, pastes, pomade, cream, powder, soap...you get the idea...and not surprisingly it is also where we get some of the most exposure to chemicals in our products and even in our water! Not only are we drinking nasties but we are bathing in nasties too.  You can find out all kinds of information about drinking unfiltered tap water here and bathing in this water here.  This is such a big conversation that we will save this one for another day.  Today I want to talk more about household products, so here we go :) I hope you enjoy it as much as I love sharing it!

And as long as I am talking about water I will just start here at my water cooler.  For my birthday last year my Mr. Wonderful (that's Jeff) bought me this water dispenser...I had actually been begging for one for a few months prior and he finally broke down.  We were previously using the Pur water filter system (the pitcher system) and although the water tasted good and we weren't using bottled water and contributing to the landfill and giant trash gyre problems stemming from all that, we WERE STILL tossing on average 2 filters per month into the garbage.  That adds up and I personally did not feel good about it. So we purchased three 5-gallon water jugs and when two get empty we go fill 'em up at our local New Seasons grocery which happens to be 5 blocks from our home.  We spend about $4 every two weeks on water and it is super tasty to boot and we don't have any waste which makes me even happier.  Now if we could lift GLASS jugs instead of plastic it would be even better but it is a step in the right direction.  I know that most people, including me, cannot afford to purchase a $5,000 water filtration system for our homes so this at least solves the drinking water issue.



 This here tape is pH testing tape, very similar to what you use to test the pool or hot tub or in chemistry class but you hold it in your urine stream and test the pH of your body instead.  I like to do this in the mornings to see how acidic my body is and then I check again later in the day to see if it has changed.  It usually does and it is also usually a huge difference when I drink my green juice.  Your body will constantly strive to be at its optimum pH and will regulate accordingly but what happens is we tend to incorporate a LOT of acidic foods into our diet meaning our body is not as alkaline as we would like it to be (in order to do things like kill cancer cells).  Eating right is essential to maintaining a healthy pH level and your overall health.  Here is a great link with some basic information to get you started if you are interested in learning more about pH and your health.  And another one too, with even more detail.





 My beautiful mama gave me a Clarsonic Mia and I take it into the shower with me every day.  It is like the toothbrush and vibrates super fast and cleans your face like nobody's business.  LOVE IT!  I have been using Desert Essence Organic facewash for sensitive skin and it seems to be doing very well for me.  It hurts if I get it into my eyes though, I am assuming it is the tea tree that is irritating.  Eyes are not a good place for tea tree.
For shaving purposes I LOVE this product! I have even gotten Mr. Wonderful hooked on it.  It is a cream instead of a foam so it provides a nice moisturizing barrier between your skin and your razor.  I have always had issues with razor burn and this is the best shaving cream I have ever found.  It gets a pretty crappy rating on the cosmetics safety data base at a "6" out of 10 so I am going to be looking for a new love.  It will most likely turn out to be plain ol' soap from the Oregon Soap Company.  I absolutely LOVE their bar soap in Soapman's spice or patchouli, but they have all kinds of lovely scents that are ALL NATURAL and very moisturizing.






Once again, it is Desert Essence for me right now as far as shampoo/conditioner go.  I like to have two varieties in the shower just to keep it fresh :) I love the fresh scent of the green apple and ginger but my hair really loves the coconut one...and it reminds me of warm sunshine.

Simply Divine Botanicals is a company I discovered last year and I absolutely LOVE every product I have tried of theirs.  I ordered a couple of things and they sent me a TON of samples along with my order and I just loved every one of them.  They  are made with ingredients that you could literally eat and some of them are even infused with Reiki.  I use the lymph drainage cream called "Keeping Abreast Of It" as well and highly recommend it to anyone battling cancer to help drain their lymph system.
THIS eye cream is the bomb! It is called "Pack Your Bags They're Leaving" instant gratification eye gel and it is exactly what it says it is.  Put a dab on and in a minute or two, gone! Bye, bye bags.  This 1oz jar has lasted for about 9 months (I should probably toss it) but it is still as wonderful as it was when I got it.  I will be purchasing more, this has become a staple in my cosmetics bag.
 Here is my "girly" shelf in the bathroom.  I use the coconut oil (find it in the cooking section of your local grocery and look for 100% organic and raw). It usually costs around $8-$12 and lasts for a long, long time.  Sometimes I like to spruce it up with a few drops of essential oil like lavender or vanilla or frankincense or patchouli or what ever you like.  It is very moisturizing and you smell oh so good! If you don't like that you can use some grapeseed or jojoba or almond or another organic oil as well, you can find the perfect oil for your skin out there, there are many to choose from.  Nearly all lotions we put on our skin are quite literally filled with toxins and those soak into our skin and into our blood.  It is worth the time to look at your ingredients on this one and decide if you want to rub toxins all over your body or use natural oils that are even better anyway in every aspect.

As far as "make-up" I use Bare Minerals and have for years now.  My mama turned me on to it and it is another one of those staples in my bag.  I use their mascara, blush, foundation (with sunscreen), lip gloss, brushes, eye shadow, eye liner, etc.  They have it all.  And they rate low on the cosmetics safety data base which is wonderful.  They are made of crushed up minerals, sometimes pearls or even diamonds too, giving your skin a nice glow.  It covers blemishes or uneven skin tones very well and doesn't look like you have on make up at all and best of all it allows your skin to breathe.  I most highly recommend checking them out if you have not caught on to the mineral makeup thing yet.  Once again it is important to keep those nasty toxins off our face and away from our eyes and lips.  So ditch the drugstore cosmetics.  I can guarantee you that 99% of those (if not 100%) are BAD BAD BAD.  The mineral makeup might cost a little more but it will last you for a long long time because it is just minerals.  I have had most of my eyeshadow colors for years and I have never ever used an entire one or come close to it yet.  The foundation and bisque are the two that I use the most of and even then they last approximately 8-12 months for the average sized container.  You can usually also find a killer deal on their stuff at QVC and you can often also get "kits" that include foundation, mineral veil, bisque, and other essentials for a very reasonable price.


This Josie Maran Argan Oil is yet another one of those wonderful things that my beautiful mama turned me onto.  I use it in my hair, on my face, and if it were not so expensive I would put it all over my body.  This is another one of those "a little goes a long way" products.  100% pure organic oil from a tree.  WONDERFUL stuff!
I like this derma e scar gel.  I use it on the giant scar from the insertion of my power port.  I put it on daily to try to reduce the appearance of the scar and it is very nicely beginning to blend in with the rest of my skin.  For the longest time it was very obvious and purple.  Mine took a little extra time to heal, most likely from the chemo I'm sure.  I bruise so easily these days.  My knees are covered in bruises and I have no idea why.  I look like a really bad rollerskater that doesn't wear kneepads! I have never tried any other scar gel so I have nothing to compare it to, but I felt it was worth the mention.

Deodorant.  I rarely ever use it.  I find that I smell worse and sweat more if I use it so I never do unless I am going to be in close proximity with others in a professional setting or something or sometimes I just get a wild hair and rub some on...which I usually regret later.  But I know that I am not like most others out there, so this is for you deodorant devotees.  I really like this one as far as deodorants go.  I have tried them all over the years too.  First of all you should always get a deodorant and not an antiperspirant.  Antiperspirants have chemicals in them that actually prevent you from perspiring...NOT GOOD....your body perspires to cleanse itself as well as to cool itself.  If you are preventing this from happening you are creating a buildup of toxins in your body not to mention also putting chemicals on your body in close proximity to your lymph nodes and breasts (both men and women).  This is why it is important to check those ingredients once again and use the cosmetics safety database to look them up if you don't know what they are.  We can no longer ignore or remain ignorant of what we purchase and use on our body.  Ignorance can hurt us and future generations (our offspring...ADD, ADHD, allergies, sensitivities etc.)

This aloe plant is my favorite moisturizer in the world! It even clears up the eczema/rash on my face courtesy of a year of chemotherapy...somewhere around 40 treatments now....
I just break off a piece and smoosh it around a little and squeeze it out like I'm squeezing a tube and just rub it into my face.  It feels really great plus like I said, it gets rid of my rash so I could only imagine how well it would work for other skin issues.  When I travel I break off a couple of pieces and put them in a baggie, it travels very well and works great for sunburns too!  Again, a staple in my bag.



FRESH AIR    Aaaahhhh...

Our home is old and is made with plaster walls and we do not have any insulation so it is quite moist and drafty in the winter time and whenever it is excessively wet...and after all, I live in the PNW and it is often excessively wet.  Mr. Wonderful purchased this dehumidifier for us last year.  It has made the air in our home so much cleaner and dryer.  It is also energy star certified and we have not noticed much of a difference in our power bill from it.  We set it at 40% humidity and cycle it on for 2 hours/off for 2 hours.  It has a 3 gallon capacity tank and we empty it every other day.  I would use the water for our plants but I fear it has mold spores in it and I don't want to promote the growth of mold anywhere other than on places like cheese or where it belongs, basically anywhere but my home and around my windows and lungs. Especially when my immunity is compromised from chemotherapy.

 This is our air filter.  It oscillates and has three settings for fan speed.  It also has washable filters instead of disposable ones that end up in a landfill at best.  I have noticed a considerable difference in the quality of our air since we have been using this filter.  With a dog and a cat and hardwood floors there are always dust buffalos roaming our nooks and crannies and hanging out in herds in the corners.  The air feels so much cleaner and less dusty and irritating.  My throat feels nicer and I am not as congested and phlegmy.  It definitely helps keep the allergens down.  This one also constantly runs in our home, even in the winter time.  In the summer it also doubles as a fan and it's slim design makes it easy to tuck into a place where it will not dominate your space.  It wasn't very expensive and I have nothing but great things to say about it.  Highly recommended if the budget ever allows for it and worth saving for if it doesn't.  You will thank yourself for this one.


Lastly I could not finish this blog without talking about castile soap.  I have been using Dr. Bronner's for years.  You can use it for so many things from toothpaste to shampoo to laundry to aphid spray, to floor cleaner, to...get the picture.  This is a wonderful substitute for any household cleaning product that you are having trouble finding a natural replacement for.  Just be sure to use only a little bit because it is highly concentrated and if you dump a bunch into the washing machine you might have a little issue on your hands :)  I have even used this to wash my car and it works wonderfully on road grime and tar and bugs and doesn't kill the environment or the fish.  The bottle is a ton of fun to read when you are, well, you know "sitting around" and it comes in a variety of natural fragrances.  My personal favorite is the peppermint.  Very tingly!





Lastly, I want to give a shout out to my very best friend in the whole wide world my kitty!
Today is her birthday!  Happy birthday to my companion who gives to me unconditional love and always knows when something is wrong and is always there to comfort me.  May you have a long long life ahead of you yet.
Her name is Sienna.  We (my mom and I) called her that because of her coloring and she seemed to like it.  She rarely gets called that though.  Pot Pie is what we call her now and it really has stuck.  It came from me calling her Poppy (again the color thing) and someone one day said "did you say Pot Pie?" and then THAT stuck so that is her new handle now.  She likes it and it is fun to say.
She turned 15 today.  She was diagnosed with diabetes in the fall of 2005 and she gets insulin shots twice a day, making traveling interesting sometimes because someone always has to shoot the cat.  We have bonded a LOT in the past years due to her illness and now due to mine.  She is always laying beside me when I don't feel good and is always there to make me smile when I am feeling down.  Petting her is therapy.  Scrubbing that little chin and stuffing my face into her belly to feel her silky soft fur are two of my favorite things to do :)  She wakes me up in the mornings by nudging her head into mine wanting food and little kisses on the top of her head.  She loves her kitty lovin' in the morning.  She particularly loves to have her little head rubbed, I call it "kitty small head".  She has this little bunny pal that is a stuffed black and white bunny that an ex of mine from many many years ago gave me for valentines day or easter or something.  She used to HATE that bunny! She would hiss at it and attack it, but she secretly loved it too.  I went away for a month once to visit my father in TN and my mom sat the cat.  Sie (short for Sienne) picked up the bunny and carried it around our apartment and meowed at it and with it in her mouth too! It became her pal in my absence!  It has since come along with us on every move and has never left Pot Pies side.  Even Clark our yellow lab knows better than to chew it up and he has an obsession for all things fuzzy and stuffed.  We call it the Death Bunny.

Here is to you my little furry companion! I love you! May you have many more health filled years ahead of you! I hope that eventually you will like Clark a little more :)

Friday, April 29, 2011

Humble Pie and Help

I really feel that need to share something with you all.

As you all must know by now the old bank account has been wearing very thin lately.  I've spent over 30K at the naturopath alone in the last year.  Crazy huh! I had a glimmer of hope that my state insurance would cover the supplements and IV's but alas, I had a feeling it was too good to be true.  Things have worked out since then though and for the moment it is no longer an issue....why you ask, well let me tell you what you need to know.

It took a lot of humble pie to do it but I did the absolutely unthinkable...
I asked for help.

There you go, plain and simple.  It was different.  I like to be the one helping others, not the other way around.  If I have it, I share it.  That is what I like to do, but you guys and gals, WOW!

I was sitting around late one night this week not being able to sleep from a treatment, looking on Amazon to order my supplements and realized "wait, I'd better check my account first to make sure there is enough money to cover this"  then I got all depressed, not wanting to even look at my dwindling account for fear that it would say "0" or worse yet, "overdraft"  lame.....so I decided to put my order on the "wish list" so in my late night stupor I would not accidentally click the "purchase" button.  I then decided to try to get some sleep (on the couch, my usual spot lately) and sleep I did.  I woke up and looked at the Amazon wish list again reluctantly but knowing that I needed to order my vitamins regardless of if it drained my account or not.  It was then that I saw the little "share this on fb" icon and so I clicked it.  The rest is history, I seriously could not post the supplements on my list fast enough, you all were so eager to help! I cannot even begin to tell you all how incredibly moving this was to me! You all are so incredibly selfless and awesome! Talk about help! Thanks to all of you who so generously purchased my supplements for me this month!  It was such a complete lifesaver! It came at the perfect time as well.  Lately I have been feeling pretty down in the dumps.  I have been really feeling the effects of having stage IV inoperable, incurable, your screwed cancer on just about every aspect of my life lately including everyone and everything around me.  I stepped on my cat the other day, TWICE in the same few seconds.  Really crushed her too, God I wanted to puke! I felt so bad, she was so hurt and mad at me and growled at me and hissed then went and hid in a dark corner of the basement.  Horrible! She even limped a little the next day! All because of my mushy chemo brain, ears, eyes I didn't even see her, nor was I looking because I was so focused on filling up pill box for the week instead.  Like another one of my blogger friends said "cancer affects everything/everyone around you...the plants animals and people"  too true.  I can't even begin to express how many things have been pushed to the side (and often forgotten completely about) because of cancer.  But that is not THIS story, save that for another time when I feel like complaining :)

THIS story is about asking for help.  Swallowing our pride, our reservations, our "but I don't deserve it's".  YOU do deserve it!   Asking for help is one of the hardest things for us to do, we have to swallow that giant lump, take a chance, feel a little uncomfortable for a nano-second then allow it to happen.  Put it out there to the universe and see what comes back to you, but just make sure you are ready and willing to accept it, then accept it graciously and with love and thanks.  You do deserve it!

Once again, you have all "made my day/week/month!" You constantly continue to teach me that I deserve it too.  Thank you, thank you, thank you! You continually inspire me, keep me strong, and give me the strength to kick some cancer ass!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

My favorite products: In the bath

I thought I would share some of my favorite products with you along with my morning bathing routine.  the products I use are by no means the "be-all-end-all" of personal products, just the ones that are best for my skin and are least toxic to my body and health because lets face it, I don't need any more toxins in my body.  So here goes...













This is my favorite toothbrush.  It has taken me a while to find one but after a long time of looking but I have found it.  It is the Preserve toothbrush made from recycled yogurt cups, you send in the toothbrush when you are done with it in the envelope provided by them and they recycle it by replacing the brushes and viola! It's special curved design really gets my back teeth well and is super duper comfortable (even though it looks like it might not be).  

My fav toothpaste
Jason Powersmile is my favorite toothpaste.  I have been using it for many years and every time I go to the dentist he cannot believe how little plaque and tartar I have and how clean and healthy my teeth and gums are.  It is rated a 2 on the Cosmetics Safety Data Base scale (0-10, 0 being least toxic and 10 most).  For a reference point, Crest's least toxic toothpaste is a 4 with the highest being a 7, so if you are brushing with Crest, most likely you are brushing with toxins.


Earth Therapeutics Skin Brush
Tampico Vegetable Fiber
Before I get in the shower I use my dry brush.  If you have never heard of it or if you have but have never tried it you simply MUST!  Here is a great blog with everything you ever wanted to know about dry brushing and all the benefits of it.  This is a picture of my dry skin brush.  I purchased it for $8 at my local Fred Meyer, so in other words, they are easy to find.  It is really quick and easy to do.  It only takes a couple of minutes to do and it is soooo worth it! Your skin feels so soft and smooth and you will notice the difference in the first couple of times.  Forget all those lotions with toxins and fancy synthetic exfoliators etc. this works way better and clears your body of toxins as well.  Your skin is the largest organ on your body and what ever you put on it gets directly absorbed into your blood.  Dry skin brushing clears all that dead skin off allowing your body to release toxins.  It also invigorates you and leaves you feeling like a newborn.  Why would you not want to do it?






I love Oregon Soap Company Soap
My essential oil collection
Coconut oil (used also for cooking)
and some of my favorite e.o.'s
Next I either shower or take a nice hot detox bath.  Lets start with the shower.  I use the Oregon Soap Company's bar soap in Soapman's Spice in the shower.  While I am in the shower I use my Clairsonic Mia on my face with Desert Essence Gentle Nourishing Organic Cleanser.  When I get out and dry off I use either Grapeseed oil, or coconut oil  with a little essential oil depending on my mood.  If I am having terrible hot flashes I like to use an essential oil blend called "Cool Hottie" from Aura Cacia.  Sometimes (especially after chemotherapy) I like to take a nice hot detoxifying bath.  For this I use a product called Beyond Clean.  It helps your body get rid of toxins and keeps you from absorbing toxins in your water.  I also like the Desert Essence shampoo and conditioner too.  I really love the coconut one, smells great too :)

Ok, I have held onto this for almost a week now thinking that I wanted it to be "perfect" before I published it, but I have let that go....thankfully :)

So here is the first installment of "My favorite products"  I hope you enjoy.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

DAY 365! HAPPY CANCERVERSARY TO ME!

Me loving life!
YAY!

One year ago I was in a world of hurt.  It is now 8:18am as I type and at this moment one year ago I was hearing the words "YOU HAVE CANCER".

My world completely stopped.  I looked at my doc who had a horrified look on her face.  She was the exact same age as me and had never had to deliver that information to anyone in her career yet. She almost could not even look at me she felt so bad, so then I looked to Jeff.  He was staring straight ahead, afraid to make eye contact with me as well.  It couldn't have been more than a few seconds but it felt like an eternity to me.  Breaking the silence and shock I said "OK, tell me EVERYTHING I need to know." I wanted to get started on fixing things right away.

Snow camping at White Pass
This did not mean I was not worried and scared and honestly I was angry and ashamed too.  "Why me?", "This is not fair!", "But I exercise and eat well..." (or so I thought)...I also felt ashamed...like my body betrayed me, like I had something ugly inside of me and I somehow deserved this certain death sentence that had been handed to me.


NOT ANY MORE! HELL NO!

It is exactly one year since my diagnosis.  I have changed my life in so many ways.  One year ago my priorities became crystal clear to me.  How many people can say that?  I KNOW now what is important in this life.  So, in a twisted and weird way, cancer was a blessing.

Since then I have been through 31 rounds of chemotherapy and at least 80-90 nutritional IV's, there is still no end in sight yet.  I am getting my 5th CT scan in the middle of April, my oncologist says that he doesn't plan to have any surprises (slow growing tumors are slow to shrink) but I can't help but worry a little none the less.
more beauty

So, I dedicate this day to ME!
I AM ALIVE!

I can smell the flowers and nuzzle my nose into my kitties soft furry little tummy, I can hear the birds singing outside and the wind making music with everything it touches.  I can see the stars and moon as they give me strength to make it through tough times and shine on me as if I were the only person in the whole world.  I have a GENEROUS, loving and incredibly selfless support system, YOU and you have helped me in so many ways that will never ever be forgotten or taken for granted.  I have an amazing family who constantly give me strength even though they might not know it.  I have the most wonderful parents in the world who both were so incredibly strong when I told them of my diagnosis. "Whatever, cancer-schmancer I know you are gonna kick its ass." is what they basically said, but I knew that deep inside they were terrified for me.  I have the most amazing, wonderful, caring boyfriend in the entire world and I am thankful for him and his love every single day of my life.  I still have enough energy to get out every chance possible and ski, climb, hike and enjoy my life to its fullest and to the best of my ability.  I have TODAY, I have THIS MOMENT.  I am content.
summit of silver peak with friends '09

Go enjoy your life! Tell those you love just how much you appreciate them and love them! Take time to enjoy the little things and above all be good to yourself and love yourself.  You can't make anyone else happy until you are happy and you cannot truly love others until you learn to love yourself first.  How you treat the world is reflected in how you treat yourself.   Try to see the positive (even if it is only a tiny bit) in everything you do and everyone you meet.

Be kind. Leave nothing but love in your wake.

After today I am no longer titling my blog posts with how many days it has been since I have been diagnosed and survived this cancer.  It is time to move on :)





Cancer Can Suck It!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Day 359! WOOT!

I didn't forget about you all ;)

I just wanted to let you know that I am working on a new blog post.  I am currently going through every room of my house documenting the products I use in each room, so that I may be able to:

1. learn something new about my chosen products (are they "really" healthy etc)
2. share this knowledge with you so that you can have an easier time choosing healthy products that have been tried and tested without having to go through all the research etc.

So please be patient, there are many exciting changes coming and I am just trying to keep up with them all.

Everyone take precious care and I will be back soon.

Peace, Love, Light, Joy, and HEALTH

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Day 350! Hope on the Slopes at Crystal Mountain THIS WEEKEND!

YES!

It is almost here! Crystal Mountain's 3rd annual Hope on the Slopes event raising money for The American Cancer Society helping more people have more birthdays and cancerversaries! Raising money for reserach and a CURE!

I don't know if I have ever mentioned that I used to live at Crystal Mountain.  From 1990-1996 and for another brief period of time when I graduated from undergrad in 2000-2001.
Here is how it all started.

I graduated from high school in Lacey WA in 1990.  I had attended Timberline High until my senior year upon which time I attended the brand new NIGHT high school called New Century.  Loved it! After graduation I attended The Evergreen State College for one quarter (loved school but just couldn't afford it and honestly, just wasn't ready either) and met some friends (Eddie and Andrew....big shout out to you two if you are reading this!) that had worked on Crystal the previous winter and from what they told me I KNEW I had to be there.  I had learned to snowboard a couple of years prior and jumped at the chance to work at a resort!  Waiting tables at the Crystal Inn was my very first job at the mountain and my very first time EVER waiting tables.  I can still remember how sorry for me everyone felt on my first night at the Crystal Inn.  (A side note: the Crystal Inn is no longer there, it was torn down years ago along with the pool.) I honestly told everyone of my tables that I was a "virgin" to the server profession and to please have patience.  I walked out with over $100 on my first night of sympathy tips :) I got to snowboard every day if I wanted and the rent was cheap. It was great!

Then I worked at Rafters (now the Bullwheel) for a season.  The biggest thing I can remember from that is that I had the most horrible nightmares about not being able to go to sleep until my tables left, but they all just sat there eating fries and drinking cocoa never ordering more but just taking up a table and keeping me at work (and usually leaving a 50 cent tip cause fries and cocoa were not much of a spendy bill).  Not really....well the nightmares were real but so were the friendships.  I can remember such great times up there with my mountain family.  Next I got a gig at the Silver Skis running the front desk.  That was my favorite! I became like a daughter to the Hartfords.  Phyllis and I would have so much fun together! She taught me so much about life, running a business, public relations, and oh so much more! Phyllis, I love you!  I hope I get to see you this weekend!

I loved being on the mountain! It really felt like home to me more than anywhere I have ever lived and I still to this day consider it home.  Which is why what I am about to tell you next is so very important and special to me.

Anyone who has been on facebook lately (who is my friend and if you are not come and find me :) knows that THIS  weekend is the American Cancer Society Hope on the Slopes event at Crystal Mountain ( it is also at Mt Hood, AND it is also my dad's  b-day).  So far everyone participating has raised nearly $50,000! Isn't that great!?  It all goes to the American Cancer Society helping more people have more birthdays.  Hearing the words "YOU HAVE CANCER" is something that will change your life forever, guaranteed.  I never thought I would ever hear those words...I'm healthy, I'm young, I'm active, blah, blah, blah.....As I type I am sitting in the Chemo Suite at the Northwest Cancer Specialists and it is a busy day.  Business is good, booming in fact.  No bueno! Lets put these people out of business folks! Wont you join me at Crystal for some exercise and fun on Saturday March 12 from 9-4.  If you can't ski or board there is still tons of fun to be had! There is a scavenger hunt, a snowshoe tour of the mountain, a BBQ and so much more! If you can't make it then you can still participate by making a donation HERE.  Any little bit helps in a HUGE way.

This is my really personally important part.
I will be speaking at the event as the guest speaker/survivor of honor and I can't say how much I am honored to get to do this.  Really.  So here is even another reason to come :) I love to talk:) If my chemo brain allows me I will hopefully be putting on quite a show, I have so much to share! I wonder how long they will let me talk :) I hope that people will be listening.  I don't know if I have ever spoken to a crowd of people larger than about 60 or so.  I am not nervous at all, actually I am super excited! Speach? Nah...I am gonna wing it :) and say exactly what needs to be said :)

I am also attending an open house cocktail reception for The Center of Traditional Medicine tomorrow night.  This place is so amazing! Highly recommend it for healing as well as for an event.  It is so beautiful right on the Willamette, a green building (remodeled old Foundry really interesting) and a social gathering place.  A lot of wonderful people will be there and I want to unveil my desire for a juice bar/wellness hub that either travels around or is stationary on Alberta.  I want to provide education and support in various ways for cancer survivors (because we are all survivors) and for everyone and anyone who wants to be a wellness warrior. Of course this juice bar will be working in conjunction with local organic farms to supply the veggies and fruit for the juice and smoothies, local roasters for coffee and tea (you get the picture)...so now all I need to do is start making the connections.  Something is telling me that the ball is sitting on top of the hill at the moment and at any second this weekend it is going to get a little push or maybe a big shove and I am standing on top of it and I will be in for a big ride and in a whirl of 4-8months hours becoming days, days becoming nights, days and nights becoming weeks, becoming months, seasons pass, all of the sudden its hot, I'm selling crafts made from my IV's and found items, making connections and taking to people about the good stuff (health and food and products) then BAM! There it will be "The Grassy Green" a gathering place for wellness.  Who knows! Maybe I could even have a yoga studio or some rebounders at the very least.  Way cool!

One last thing.
I had chemo today and I will be going in for my next scan in the first week of April (fingers crossed)!
My platelets were back up over 100 again which was very good, but my hemoglobin was under 10 and that means I am very anemic so they gave me a shot of something that helps fix it called Aranesp or something like that.  It works and it also makes me feel energetic so that's good I suppose.

Ok, I have to try to get some sleep tonight.  I just wanted to share with you all.  I hope to see those of you who can make it up at the mountain on Saturday.  Plus I just found all my old photos from the day and I want to try to scan some into my mac tonight :)  so if you are a friend on facebook then you can check them all out.

You all take great care and have a wonderful weekend.  I need some rest.
All the love, joy, hope, peace, love, and light to every single one of you out there!
YOU are the best support team anyone could ever ask for and I couldn't be doing any of this without you!  You are loved and appreciated!

I couldn't fit all of the information on the ChipIn this time but it should say that it is for my naturopath expenses for the month of March.